Helloooo!

I talk about A LOT A LOT of different projects here. And it might be confusing if you’re accustomated to people living in the “one trick pony” lane. In fact, we have a shit ton of programming in our society that we must decide our path early on and never deviate from it.

But do you know that sounds like to me?

Prison

Dudes… absolutely and positively

Prison

I used to go round and round in a major relationship where the person accused me about chasing the “shiny new object” cuz a psychic friend gave that person the wording to explain it.

But here’s the deal: I’ve always been honest about having a lot of different interests. My partner? Pretended to be more focused. But in reality? Made all sorts of messes that took years to clean up. And the clean up fell on me thereby making it all but impossible for me to be able to pursue my interests with integrity. This is especially since that person would sabotage me at every step.

Yes. That’s a ton of whining. But I’m grateful for the experiences. Why? It taught me what I really wanted cuz I fucking had to fight to make things happen in those conditions. So? I learned real quick what I was willing to do no matter the obstacles. Cuz in the creative arts? There’s nothing but obstacles. It’s absolutely full of shiny new objects for people to consume until the next shiny new object comes along and the next and next…

And the real method to my “madness” with so many different projects? I’ve been spending years and decades in some cases to build up my craft in order to generate multiple income streams. This allows me to create from a place of abundance instead of having my entire income dependent on a single income source. And that’s why I added a second part-time survival job to let me be more grounded in my creative works instead of having me live or die from them alone.

This not only applies to art… Dating too. Yes. I wrote a series of blogs about love and relationships… Dissecting my traditional love relationships and expectations around women, Loving My Curves, Tacked on Relationship Comments, and Hot to Trot. I know it sounds like I’ve been a dating machine. When really? I’ve paid attention from the beginning cuz people reveal themselves if you pay attention instead being caught up in potential.

A great example is a dude recently sliding into my DMs pretending to have read my blogs. And when I asked if he had?? He balked and asked that I tell him my favorite blogs for him to read. When I told that I don’t choose for grown adults and I was done? He called me difficult. Dude. I was able to find out that he wants a caretaker and can’t handle criticism in just a few lines. Fuck that shit cuz asking an artist what one is their favorite cuz you’re too lazy to do your due diligence of figuring out what you like best on your own? Huh… If he hadn’t come in acting like he knew my blogs???? A somewhat of a different story.

Most of my exchanges were short like that. Sure. It seems harsh. I should give more benefit of the doubt. EXCEPT??? I’m trusting my gut around who I’d be willing to give my time. And? I only have one in the bunch that I would consider beyond casual. As I’ve told him directly, he knows. I also have no expectations in terms of outcomes around that cuz I’m focusing on gratitude. I’m really applying gratitude towards all aspects of life for it allows more grace for everyone including me. It’s so incredible to live in this space since it’s about celebrating bringing value instead of being locked in this place of dependency or other self-defeating nonsense. My focus now is more on building my body of work in all my mediums.

Cuz dudes???

I’m working on more projects that aren’t ready to be discussed. Yes. This all seems scattered since I’m talking about so many things. BUT BUT BUT the real truth? I chunk the time around my projects far more than I used. Some of it is being more skilled since I can now accomplish in about six hours of writing what used to take me an 18 hours. The reason is simple: I no longer beat myself up in my art by forcing myself to endure those longer days. Cuz it’s only like those full 18 hours were golden. Giving space also allows my subconscious to play in ways that it couldn’t before since it’s no longer standing in front of a firing squad.

Last but not least about working in a variety of mediums???? It get what are called “fresh eyes.” This allows me to see things more of what they are rather than being stuck in only seeing things in one way. Yes. We’ve come full circle of the “one trick pony” idea – if I’m only caught up in things only being one way or only doing things in one way??? I only hurt myself. That’d be dumb.

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun!!

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