Helllllllllloooooo!

As a young person??? I was told to obey grown ups. Yup. They told me that grown ups know the SECRETS OF THE UNIVERSE.

Dudes!!

I just turned 55 years old. Surely? That makes me a grown up by now. Heck. I’d even settle for being an adult cuz I’m responsible for my own choices.

BUT BUT BUT…

I have no fucking clue. Like really? The Universe has not opened up to me in a way that exposes its secrets.

So?

I let you in on what I consider to be the real secret:

WE ALL MAKE IT WHILE WE GO ALONG.

Cuz really? No one is any more privy to the Universe’s secrets than the rest of us. Sure. Some folks may say that I’m projecting shit onto others. There’s a good chance those folks are trying to sell you something, Yes. So very cynical and jaded.

EXCEPT

I’ve been on all sides of this. Absolutely exhausting. Beyond educational too. Why the half sentences? And what do they have to do with today’s title? I’m just a little past seven months since my divorce finalized July 29, 2026. I chronicled a lot of my experiences since leaving my ex-husband on January 21, 2024, along with several things during that time in my Stepford Wife post.

Truth?

My return to Montana was a massive blow to my ego. Why? I wasn’t further along in the film industry before I left. And despite finding out about Da Poetry Lounge near the beginning of my arrival in Los Angeles? I never performed there due to my sleep schedule. Yes. That may sound dumb to folks… Sleep is A saving grace for bipolar disorder. It also cut into my chances of pursuing much in the way of standup cuz most beginner slots tended towards late night.

Uh, Holly? You’re a filmmaker. What the hell does public performance have to do with filmmaking? As a long time reader for multiple screenplay competitions? I can tell when folks live in their heads when they write their dialogue. This can be far more acceptable in a novel to some extent. It’s still good to test drive writing in public. If you’ve ever read Blake Snyder’s “Save the Cat,” he talked about pitching his stories to anyone willing to listen along with everyone else. This process is an awesome reality check.

Yes. I’ve been reality checking myself cuz I’ve been dragging my feet on life. Like sitting on my ass being terrified to really and truly put myself out there. After all: What if I fall flat on my face? Dudes!! I absolutely have a knack for not reading the room. So say that I say stupid things on the regular? REGULAR!! Well. Who gives a fuck? Like seriously?

WHO GIVES A FUCK IF I LOOK STUPID OR SAY SOMETHING STUPID? THE WORLD ALSO WON’T END IF I DON’T GET A PERFECT NIGHT’S SLEEP. And now that I’m shifting to a later sleep schedule? My creativity has been unfurrowing itself in the best ways possible.

Yup. Done licking my wounds means that I formally give myself permission to look like an ass in public. To say that I’m excited about all my projects??? Can I get a hallelujah and sensible shoes??? Yippie! I feel so free!!! More to come soon.

As always: HAVE A GLAMOROUS DAY FOR FUN!!

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