Hello all!

The last week was tough: I had to go back for a second mammogram cuz the first one came out weird.

Yup.

I spent the whole week sitting in a space of not knowing jack. It was beyond stressful.

And????

They found nothing on the ultrasound. Great news!! So? I’ll get a follow up in six months for a baseline.

Here’s the thing though:

I found out weird mammograms can be common due to thick cells. Like A LOT A LOT of women go through this.

Sure. I could have posted about it sooner

EXCEPT?

I didn’t have anything to report until they cleared me.

Cuz…

I needed to care for me. If I told others beyond the select that I did? I would have felt that I needed to perform wellness

When?

I needed time to be alone with my thoughts. AND!?! I didn’t have it in me to support other people’s emotions around my thing. Just too much. This is especially since my aunt had breast cancer a long time ago. And her treatment caused a massive stroke decades later just like the medical “professionals” said may happen. To say that stroke really messed with her? Yeah.

Yes. I did my old behavior pattern of munching too much sugar after I found out instead of letting me experience my emotions. The flip side? I used to do this all the time. Now? I feel crappy. Sure. I may end up doing this again at some point.

BUT BUT BUT

I’m grounded enough to where I’m frustrated with myself. Not beating myself up. Just frustrated. The good news? My breathwork gave me a port in the emotional storm throughout it all.

It’s also funny how clear some things became. I plan to write more in the coming weeks. Here’s this week’s check in video.

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun!!

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