Hello all!

I came up with the phtrase “chaos monster” during a breathwork training. And I thought that I released that fucker during that training.

Nope.

Cuz it was more of an abstract idea back then.

Now?

I understand that it’s putting the weight of everything… YES!!!! My ENTIRE LIFE in one thing.

And DUDES? I’ll be honest about the outcome:

TOTAL FAILURE

It’s absolutely not sustainable for me to put the weight of everything in the universe on everything that I do. Exhausting. And it kept me stuck. Not minorly stuck. STUCK like as in I might has be running around with super glue to dabble on EVERYTHING that I do to keep me trapped to that moment.

BUT BUT BUT

Real life keeps going whether I do things perfectly or not. This is such a hard things to learn. So? Yup. I keep relearning it.

EXCEPT…

It’s getting easier and easier to see the more that I breathe and settle into myself. Such a gift.

That’s how much I used the shadow on my photo once again to suggest an

INVISIBLE PRISON.

Can anyone else relate?

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun!!

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