Heeeeellllllllllllooooooo!

Dudes!!

I often talk about longer practices like how I’m in the middle of a 105 conscious connected breathing cycle. As I mentioned in my most recent check in, I’ll be doing another round of the sex magic ritual for 105 days when I finish that practice.

AND? I mentioned going to open mics for a year in my announcement about deciding to pursue country music.

I also wrote about putting together 100+ scripts of various lengths in my redefining punk before deciding that 3 WISHES is worthy of producing into a feature film. And I’ve been preparing myself to do wby putting together over 16 short films while finishing up our indie feature MY APOCALYPTIC THANKSGIVING.

Sure. Some folks may think that this is bragging. Nope… I expect nothing less from me. If anything? I feel like I’m setting the bar low for myself.

Huh?

Let me explain…

Repetition allows space for fucking up. REPEATEDLY. No need to be precious or sacred when you’re in it for the long haul. Like when we were auditioning 400+ people for MY APOCALYPTIC THANKSGIVING? I took a master class from a casting agent. It was to help me better understand the process… She talked about how actors putting the weight of their entire career on a single audition often screw themselves. Dude. Like serious pressure.

I’ve been there sooooooooooooooo many times. Oh, boy. Have I ever?!

I’ve almost always fucked when I do that shit to myself.

Cuz the most important… I’m not looking for hacks or quick fixes. It’s about identity changes that allow me to go deeper in everything that I do…

EXCEPT?

This isn’t possible from just one session no matter how intensive. Real changes are slow and methodical if I want them to stick.

Yup. I want my changes to stick. Cuz if what I was doing worked? I wouldn’t have blown up my life. Yup. Total glorious fashion for sure. BUT BUT BUT I never want to go back to that.

And?

I don’t have to do that. So? Yes. It means that my move to Nashville is slower than I originally planned. Totally cool. Fine too. I feel so much more solid in myself since my systems are coming up with all sorts of exciting projects that I’ll be rolling out very soon. Yes. Sooner rather than later.

The best part? I’m having fun making an ass out of myself in public. Since I feel more grounded in myself? I honestly don’t care.

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun!!

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