Hellllllllllllllllllllloooooooo!

Yes. Today is my birthday.

Not a big or fancy one… Just a garden variety one.

And in the past? I list out all these amazing accomplishments that I’d set to finish by the next one. They tended to be about me doubling down on my New Year’s Intentions or scrapping those for new things.

Well?

I’ll do more of a check in and update…

I’ve made progress on my microbudget feature film 3 WISHES beyond just shooting B roll. I’ve also been digging into my emotional innards while doing the work for Layla Martin‘s classes and working through my 105 day conscious connected breathing ritual. It’s about gaining clarity around family dynamics in way not possible before cuz I’m slowing down to be present rather than being caught up in old loops.

The combo has also inspired another feature script that I’m now putting together. And now that I have my survival jobs lined up with a set schedule? I’m able to build in my writing time. Love it!!

Wait! There’s more that I’ve been circling around for a while in my blogs. A hint is in my blogs window of tolerance/bullshit detector and the evils of paraphrasing. Heck… I even touch on it in my post about redefining punk.

Aaaaahhh…

I could really list all my posts. Cuz? Dudes? I know the new age and therapy phrases except? A lot of them drive me crazy. Why? They sound so fucking patronizing. Like phrases like…

“You have permission to shine.”

Who the fuck is giving you permission? Your therapist? Mother? The dude down the street with the barking dog?

WHO? WHO? WHO?

Seriously!?!

That’s how come I’m working on deconstructing all that language cuz it feels like politically correct gaslighting to me. And these subtle preening in language is everywhere.

So?

I’m building my “cowboy contract” language to strip all that out. This is also calling my own self out when I use it. Yes. That language has its purpose. SO DOES DIRECT LANGUAGE WITHOUT BELLS AND WHISTLES. I feel a whole heck of a lot safer with that than people talking in comma forests.

And???

I’m building that into the foundation for my indie film company, coaching, and my art… ALL OF MY ART.

Dudes???

That’s gonna take the rest of my life in the best way possible. I also love love love that my life has been a shit show to this point. No ifs ands or buts about it. I’ve been living in dumpster fire city with me actively being my very own arsonist. Sure. I’ve done new and improved versions along the way.

Cuz really? The times that I appeared to have my shit together? I’ve generally been a huge mess behind the scenes. And when I’ve looked like a big ole mess? Most creative times.

My conclusion?

I’m not cut out to be a member of the sweater set crowd. There’s also a good chance that I’ll always get cranberries on the wall when cooking Thanksgiving lunch. And no day is complete without laughing at least once if not several times.

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun!!

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