Dudes!!

I reached my poetry goal of over 400 poems!! Yippie!

Yes!! I know that I’m a maniac when it comes to writing cuz really?

Give me an excuse to write…

AND!?!

I’ll run with it.

Yup!!

So?

I have a big ole stack of poems from over the years

These are the ones that I made it into the first round. Cuz I have hundreds more that didn’t make it. Oh boy. Did they ever not make the cut. So very bad.

BUT BUT BUT

Show me a writer with “perfect writing” all the time? That person has one helluva marketing department. Cuz see? Excellent writing looks like the writing is seamless. And to get to that point? That takes a serious amount of grinding. No. I’m not saying that I’m at that level at all. It’s a goal that I will forever pursue.

Cuz honestly?!

I am always have a new thought after I hit send. Yes. It happens EVERY SINGLE with my blogs. I have more thoughts right after I publish them – Dude!! You could have said it this way… How about this way… What about this way???

EXCEPT???

Writing them daily helps me get rid of that panic cuz I know that I can always try again the next day.

It’s fabulous!!!!

Yup!!

You now know the secret behind my longer practices; THEY GIVE ME ROOM TO FUCK UP AND STOP ACTING LIKE EVERYTHING IS FUCKING PRECIOUS.

How does this relate to my poetry?

I wrote a lot from an angry place. If you’ve been reading my blogs for a minute, you’d think it’s reasonable for me to be angry about some things from my life. And? I’ve only touched on the surface. Here’s the thing though: IF I put them all in a single book, it would be a ton to absorb. It also suggests that it was my anger that helped me get through those difficult times.

Nope.

My humor is what pulled me through.

Why?

Being stuck in anger is about being in a power struggle whether it’s with my abusers or society or even myself – I’m off kilter cuz my anger had hijacked me.

When I have humor?

It’s such a beautiful middle finger to all those wanting to impose their nonsense on me. This includes me cuz truth? I’m excellent at feeding myself nonsense.

Now that I’ve given you all this background???

I’m going to break up my poetry into two groups:

The first is a collection of poems that are called “Life So Far.” I’ll publish them this year in July 2026. They’ll showcase the range of my life with them going from humor to sadness to some anger.

As for the others? I’ve finally found a home for my essay collections. See… I’ve long wanted to write something about my life following my psychotic break in 2006. Not a memoir. Those can be dull as fuck if I’m not careful. I settled on essays since I can address things while leaving out the boring parts. Still. Yet another book about someone’s struggle with mental illness!?! Please shoot me now.

Soooooooooooo????

I had an AHA moment when I started to sort my poems:

I write essays around some of the angry ones. Cuz yes!! I WAS THAT PERSON with my PETTY AND SMALL MOMENTS. For it drives me crazy when folks pretend they’re “perfect” after they’ve “healed.” Such bullshit. Every single person in through time and space has behaved like an ass at some point. We all have the capacity to inflict great harm. And pretending that we don’t? Means that we’re lying to ourselves and others.

That’s why I wrote my blog post challenging the idea of “victim” status. Since yes???? I’ve been through plenty that no one would fault me if I sat on my ass and whined forever. Cuz even ONE of my things would have justified it. How tedious and exhausting. It also strips me of my agency like I talked about in my blog post about reframing narratives around trauma.

The book with the angry poems and essays will be called “Are You Crazy!?!” I’ll have that ready for July 2028..

Why July? And why July 29 specifically?

I was hospitalized for my psychotic break on July 29, 2006, and my divorce was finalized on July 29, 2025. Talk about a good date to claim for my healing? Dudes!?! I’m all over it!!

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun!!

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