Dudes!!

I know! I know! I know! It may seem like I’m “hot to trot” since I’ve written not recent blog post about relationships. Nope. I have four.. One Two Three Four

Yup.

That’s a loooooooooooot. Like a lot!

But it’s not what it looks on the surface.

Cuz dudes?

The kinds of relationships that I’m talking about take time AND TRANSPARENCY to build. Why put just put relationships instead of romantic relationships? Simple… I’ve also had plenty of unbalanced friendships too. That falls under the relationship umbrella.

But wait!!! There’s more.

I’ve been thinking about taking Layla’s love and relationship class for about four or so years. But I wanted to first finish up my level three breathwork certification. Done at beginning of 2024. I was also deciding if I pursue level four through Transformations USA. The level four is to become a breathwork trainer. I’ve decided that I’m happy at level three.

And if I would have been “hot to trot” to move onto the next stage of my life and relationships? I wouldn’t have returned to Montana in 2024. Except I did return here to reconnect with family and work on my healing.

I’ve also learned a vital key to healing? Space. That’s what Montana gave me since I didn’t load up my schedule with big jobs or a busy social life. My jobs have all been basic beyond my script consultant contract with the Montana Film Commission BY DESIGN.

As for Layla’s class? There’s absolutely no fucking way that my nervous system would have been able to handle the coursework in winter 2025. Yes. I talked about my prep work of a 105 sex magic ritual… That’s the polite way of saying: Learning how to have a full body orgasm. And it’s a process to learn to do this when you’ve sexual trauma and lots of social conditioning like I have had.

Another aspect to Layla’s class? It about building tools for my future life. And I didn’t feel that I could do that clean until my divorce finalized on 7/29/2025. So when she was promoting her class around the Lions Gate Portal last August? Dude. I knew it was time to get to work.

So?

I’m now systematically dissecting what I’m thinking about how I want to proceed moving forward. Yup. It’s an absolute process since I’m also dismantling a lot of bullshit that no longer serves me beyond building. Cuz dudes??? There’s a ton.

My purpose for publicly sharing about my process for moving forward? I’m giving the middle finger to showing up perfectly and polished in public. Any doubts? Just look at my fashionista phase one photo from yesterday. Yes. Mom wants me to touch up my toes and remove the swear words from my blogs. She worries about how I may be perceived. If swear words and imperfect toes are enough to get your panties in a wad? What are you? The FCC? Bahaha!

In all seriousness? I know things take time. Everyone has their own process on their own timeline. I’m also being open about mine since I don’t do well when I’m pushed to move faster than my own speed. Yes. As I’m getting more grounded in myself, I need a smaller window. But I’m not rushing to make this happen since I building on my foundations rather than only chasing insights.

AND??? It feels fabulous!

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun!!

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