Hello all! I got a late start on my posting today…

Cuz see the gorgeous background? I’m going to Two Moon Park a lot while no snow is on the ground. I was disappointed to not run into any bobcats when I went last night.

I digress…

EXCEPT

Yes. Mom. I swore in my title no less.

And? Here’s the thing: I’ve had a ton of anxiety around my blogs and preparing for my Layla Martin classes that started last week. If you recall about me doing the sex magic ritual in a grounded way a total of 105 times along with reading all the books discussed in my blog post Rethinking Toxicity to prepare for the class. My system got overloaded during class. So, I’m rewatching all the videos to prepare for this year. I also announced about being a script consultant for the Montana Film Commission Office that I had been spinning about.

Yes and… I also had my first medication intake since before 2012. Yes. I have stockpiled enough meds to last me for multiple months while taking about them every day. To say this caused me anxiety. SWEET JESUS did it ever!! I’ve mostly had horrible experiences with the medical establishment. So? I embraced my inner “fuck it” attitude and told the truth cuz they were also doing an intake about therapy. Nope. I had no idea about that going into the situation. When I figured it out? I explained that I got more grounding out of my conscious connected breathing practice and then the sex magic ritual 105 in a grounding way than I did my 15 years of therapy. She asked me to explain the sex magic ritual. So? I told her the truth: Full Body Orgasm. The look on her face? Beautiful. I also believe she wrote down Layla’s name.

They gave me some resources for EDMR and let me know that they’ll be following up shortly. If you’re not familiar with EDMR, it’s using eye movements and likely your Vagal nerve to reprocess trauma. The conclusion? The woman said she loved our conversation.

There’s a lot more. But these are the overall biggies. But like dudes? It’s getting me to rethink life in general: Cuz my over functioning set up my week to be tougher since I allowed myself to be a massive stress ball. Yup. They even had a class last week that dug into perfectionism. So? I know that I’m in the right program for me. Why yes… There’s more:

I’m going to work on calming down. Notice that I said “calming down” not stop over functioning. That over functioning part? Never going away. And the need to be more my goofy and iconoclastic self? Totally going to be embraced starting with my new ending line…

As always: Have a glamorous day for fun.

I got the original Have a glamorous day ON PURPOSE from the amazing Alethea Crimmins. Her line is “Have a great day on purpose!! I started to listen to her back when I was a temporary through Robert Half. in Los Angeles Her positive messages are incredible. I was tweaking her line until I found the one that I love. I’ve also credited her along the way cuz it’s vital to site your sources. It was sort of murky here since it wasn’t her line directly. But since she inspired it? Credit is due for the inspiration. I also shared my variation with her to use at her own discretion if she’s so inclined.

Have a glamorous day for fun!!

I’ll be using that moving forward.

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