Good morning! Dudes!

I’m ready to go more in-depth about why I blew up my putting together websites to date. If you haven’t grabbed coffee yet, why not? Notice this subtle manipulation?

I’ve been spinning for about a week while I’ve made sense of all my brain is downloading… I repeated Layla Martin‘s sex magic ritual 105 until I tweaked it to become my own. As it’s been grounding instead of performative? My brain has been waking up to unconscious patterns. Yes. My background also included 100 conscious connected breathwork sessions.

I also read Richard Schwartz’s Book “Bad Parts” and took Annie Lalla‘s class on loving, read the Ethical Slut from Janet Hardy and Dossie Easton, read Gay Hendricks and Kathlyn Hendrick’s Conscious Loving, read Robert Rodriguez’s Rebel Without a Crew , read some of Neil Strauss’ The Game, Harriet Lerner’s The Dance of Anger, Sex Therapy for Erotically Marginalized Adults from multiple authors, heard Janina Fisher talk about trauma informed care, learned the difference between a soft no and a hard no in the BDSM world, listened to tons of YouTube business videos, listened to Janina Fisher talk about trauma informed care, read Pussy from Mama Gena, and consulted Tarot cards to let me use ChatGPT to synthesize these pieces along things that I’ve picked up over the years in writing, indie filmmaking, drawing standup, etc.

I explained some of my rabbit hole in case you choose to take your own journey.

My conclusion? Fear drives just about every level of society. This is especially true in the arts. I’ll be rolling out what I call my “cowboy contract” on my film website along with my guide website. I prefer the framework around being a guide rather than a coach. Yes. I’m working on how to synthesize the two… Thus the later roll out of that website.

Translation? I’ve been figuring out how to develop a corporate language that gives space to everyone with some understanding of English and regardless of how they land on spectrums. It’s basically an ethical code written at about a third grade level based on free will and abundance. Yes. I know that some folks think this is pandering. It’s only manipulation if you stick in vague language laden with emotions. An example is paraphrasing… You cherry pick ideas to build a version of someone else’s idea based on your interpretation. This is then given back to the original person. It puts pressure on that original person to accept the new definition instead of giving space for curiosity. This can lead to cognitive dissonance or even some subtle forms of gaslighting. I’ve been on both sides. They both suck cuz they’re ego driven behavior meant to cover ignorance.

Yes. I went into the weeds there. It’s to give you an idea of how my mind deconstructs language. This is why I’ve often struggled writing blogs and scripts cuz I spin on variables instead of trust my own voice. It’ll make more sense why if you read last night’s blog post about fear and agency.

Yes. I’ll be releasing my company websites during the moon cycles cuz they’re symbolic for beginnings. More to follow soon. I’d love to hear your thoughts cuz it’s easy to let ego posturing blind one to weaknesses.

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